Just came back from my grandparents house, i went there originally for a funeral... which I might have already said before...
anyway, I'm getting a dress manniken tomorrow!!!!!!!
so happy!! I've wanted one for ages!! Will make it so much easier to make dresses, and when i take photos of the dresses, you won't have to look at me!! lucky people!!
anyway... yeah
centrelink finally decided they felt like paying me!!
I checked my bank account today and found $800 odd in there and I was like ( 0-0 ) ooooooh lol
YAYAYAYAYAYAY
it's really hot...! :{

...hm...
havn't written anything in here for a while so I thought, "why not?"
I suppose a bit has happened, for anyone who cares (the one or two people, if that, who actually read this).
I've been feeling more depressed lately...dunno why, but for the most part I think I have a good reason to be sad: my friends mum died in a car accident, so that was a bit of a shock. School's still annoying but it's almost finished and I've got a couple more things of assessment to do.
Something people may not believe, or at least never have expected me to do is that I asked someone out the other day!! yay!! He said no of course...lol
Been soo tired!! I can't seem to get enough sleep. No matter how much sleep I get or how early I go to bed I can't get up in the morning...

so tired... schools being it's usual annoying self... though I do like mondays, thursdays and fridays. well only parts of them. Screwed up my drama performance so badly it wasn't funny...! I stood up, and my mind went blank and I was like F#$%!!! (in my head of course) so yeah i think I failed drama...again...
might go get a zip today so i can finally finish that dress, though it'll most likely end up looking better in the pictures than it actually will anyway...
I went to swimming training and my muscles are SOOOOOOO sore!!!!!
.......good night.......

right well I'm at rachels house at the moment... been happy all day which is a change from yesterday...
I got called pretty today!!! wellnot that that's a big deal, I suppose it's more to do with who it was that said I was pretty... well anyway you get the point lol I'm happy... went to see harry potter today...I think I liked it better this time


rachel: yeh shes on the loo im jst going to say hey and tonia IS pretty so i dont know what or why she thinks shes not...crap shes out of the loo bye!!

yay. alright I know it's been the holidays for a couple of days now and I haven't even ben going to school that much over the last couple of weeks, but still
I have now come to the conclusion that I can't draw... I've tried to draw several times recently and every attempt turned out looking horrible, so I ripped up the last one...I don't know why, I get so depressed when I can't draw. I had this idea that I thought I could draw better when I was tired, and that that actually wasn't true, I was just so tired that I was deluding myself into thinking that it was actually good and that wouldn't change until I'd had some sleep, that way at least I'd finish the horrible picture...
it's getting cold again it was a bit too hot for a couple of days there but it's good again now...